Two sets of TWINS!

I have always said that God was preparing me very early in life for having my own twins. At the age of 19 I became a nanny for my first set of twins John and Rachel. They were three months old when I started watching them. I think they are turning 14 or 15 this October yea I know it is nuts. I never missed a beat. I never thought it was too much and I was never scared or stressed out with what I did everyday. I quickly fell in love with those children including their brother Zack who is in college now. I learned so much about how to be a mom from the Pinit's they are amazing people. We loved them so much that we followed them to Buffalo right after we got married. My second and third set of twins I was a nanny for were from Buffalo, one set of twins were about 9 months when I started working for them and the other one was about 2 years old. Back then I was in my 20's had a ton of energy, no kids of my own, newly married and 2000 miles away from home. It is weird to look back now and see that, that is exactly where I needed to be when I needed to be there. I took them grocery shopping, to dance class, to the library, swimming and I was blessed to do life with these families. While most of my friends were in college or becoming moms themselves God was preparing me to be a mom and I had no idea. I really had no idea what the heck his plan was when month after month after month and year after year I did not get pregnant. But like everything in life God is preparing us and growing us for something so much bigger than we can ever imagine and for me that was becoming a mother myself to twins. And girls for that matter. I never remember wanting twins I just always wanted babies. For many years I had decided God didn't want me to be a momma he just needed me to help take care of other peoples babies. I cried many tears over this fact and loathed going to baby showers because I had resigned myself to the fact that I would never have these opportunities. Going to the hospital after a friend had a baby was always especially hard. Lots of why God's came out of my mouth during those years. But then my attitude changed one year in a boat in the Bahamas while on a missions trip. We got the amazing opportunity to help rebuild a house for a family that literally their children crawled around on dirt floors. They had no running water and hurricanes had almost wiped them out. I almost didn't go on this trip because I thought we could use the money for infertility treatment. But after much encouragement from Cliff and my friends I went and it was life changing. God showed me on that trip that their are so many kids that just need love and it didn't matter if I personally gave birth to them or not a baby is a baby or a child is a child and they all need love just the same. So I went home on mission to love the kids that God has placed in my life and stopped feeling sorry for myself. I can truly say that God had healed my heart in the middle of the ocean from a pain I felt every month for many many years. We promptly became foster parents and got our Zacky. WOW we are so blessed. Infertility treatment was never an option for us. I never felt God calling me to do that and we didn't have the money. But shortly after we moved to Vegas we found ourselves in a tragic situation loosing my dad to suicide. I am his only child and after dealing with his estate we were left, to us, what was a significant amount of money. My best friend at the time was going through a round of IVF and for the first time ever I decided maybe we could look into that. Ultimately we decided that there was nothing in the world that my dad would rather us do with his money then to use it to have kids. So that is how we ended up doing IVF. There are not too many days that go by that I don't thank my dad for my girls. They are his blessing to us. In my morbid mind sometimes I wish so hard for my dad to be here so he could experience how wonderful these children are but then I remember if he were here the girls would not, our loss was also our gain. All that and you are wondering why the HELL did she title this post Two sets of TWINS. Well mainly because I got off on a tangent and had not planed on writing any of that, but for those of you who don't know us that well I felt like you needed back story and for those of you that do know us I felt you needed a reminder:) Anyways we have this one little embryo left. And there has been talk of what if it splits and you have another set of twins. Well I did a little research today and found out that identical twins split within two days typically and since our embryo is already at day five this is highly highly unlikely. All that twin talk at the beginning was me just telling you that if we did have another set of twins we would deal with it and walk that journey but the reality is I REALLY want a normal pregnancy. I really want to try and have a natural birth. I REALLY don't want to experience bed rest or holding my crotch from 6 months on and barely being able to walk. I want to experience labor like normal people. I want everyone to come to the hospital and hold a baby that is full term and not have to do the NICU thing. So all that to say if we have twins again ok God you are funny we will go with it but I really just want one. Thanks for sharing this journey with us. We are in a holding pattern. Just waiting for Dr appointments and doing injections everyday. Keep praying for us his will be done.